•August 5, 2010 • Leave a Comment
Perhaps it is just the day, the week, or whatever… but the driving force that I once felt to seek out another has dimished. No, this is not bad. Not at all!
A lot of good things have happened recently. I got pulled over and I found out that my registration and licence were both out of date, and I was stuck with some major tickets. Knowing I couldn’t pay for these, my mother and most suprisingly my father dished in the money to pay them off. On top of this act of kindness, I now have Starcraft II which I am ever so addicted to. One minor drawback though… I am sick. Terrible cough.
Oh well. More excuse to be lazy and play SCII? Yea?
•July 26, 2010 • Leave a Comment
I love the way you walk and talk.
I love the way you know how to complete me.
I love the way we get along so well.
I love the way we fight over who gets to hold who in their arms when we cuddle.
I love the feel of your lips on mine.
I love to hold you at night.
I love your way of making things ok.
I love how I can say
I love you.
•July 26, 2010 • Leave a Comment
I never got the text back with the details on that party. I still haven’t heard from her.
Maybe I got the wrong number punched into my contacts when she gave it to me. We’ll see in good time I suppose.
•July 25, 2010 • Leave a Comment
In an interesting turn of events, I found my workday not entirely filled with misery as I cashiered at my job. Over the last couple of posts I stated how I really have been feeling alone and need of a friend. As if by miracle, I got invited to a party that would take place tonight–just a few hours from now. The girl that invited me gave me her number and told me to text her when she got home for the details.
Now, it’s been quite some time since we exchanged information and I am still awaiting her reply to my messages. I know when the party is but know not where– and she is the only person I know that is going to be there, so I can’t ask anyone else. I bought a new outfit especially for the occation in hopes to make a good impression and possibly make a few friends. Oh, and also to maybe easy some self anxiety. New clothes = one less thing to worry about. Did I mention I have never been to a party before where I knew no one? The only parties I have attended were just a small group of friends who essentially had a blast doign a random assortment of strange things– playing frisbee in the rain, dodge-frisbee, basicly everything-frisbee (until it broke anyway).
Back on topic, I am still awaiting her texts now. I spent half of what little money I do have right now on a gamble that I might make a friend or too at a party it seems I wont even make it too. This is one of those rare moments where I am sitting here in my computer chair thinking ‘FML’.
•July 22, 2010 • 4 Comments
I am talking about this more and more because it seems like it might just happen sometime in the remote future. As or recently I have been simply feeling down about most everything. I cannot tell you how many posts I have started writing here, gotten three paragraphs in, and thought it was complete crap and erased. I am so sick of feeling like shit all the time.
I think I may come out to my sister soon. Maybe soon after make it Facebook official. I loged into MyYearbook for the first time in months simply because I know my sister uses it and it is all about flirting and such. I looked at some of the very decent guys around here, who are out with their sexuality, and it encourages me to believe everything will be ok. I would be lying if I said I didn’t see a cute boy or two on there that I wouldn’t mind messaging… but right now I have a bit of self confidence issues. Maybe when I loose 10 pounds. Prolonged exposure to my grandmothers house has put on a few for me😦
You know what, I am getting increasingly happy as I write this article. Mood is improving with every statement of moving forward towards freedom. I can only imagine what it will feel like once it’s all said and done.
I need to practice on what I would like my facebook bulletin to look like. I might start crafting that here soon.